No it cannot! I just got back from basketball practice and I really didnt practice as much as I was hoping. My ankle and knee are completely shot to hell and I just couldnt practice much more than the warm up. So I really didnt burn as many calories as I ate this afternoon for lunch.

Then I got home and drank my diet coke and I was feeling really hungry so I ate a bowl of Annie Chung’s Miso Soup. It is 110 calories a serving and there are two servings in the whole bowl! What a stupid idea! I mean really, put two servings in a microwave bowl.Whoever had that idea should rewind and revise!

But here I am sitting on the couch blogging and watching the Hills and my tummy is hungry. There is nothing to deserve this hungry-ness. I ate a huge lunch and I really shouldnt have had dinner and I did, I even had two servings of it. There is no reason for my tummy to be acting like this. Grrr!

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Here I am at 12:39 and I cant sleep! I have done the unthinkable and taken some night-time cold medicine in the hopes of feeling sleepy within fifteen minutes.

Tomorrow is Halloween, or should I say today?. I am going out as a Gatsby Girl or flapper. It suits me because I don’t want to go out looking all slutty and everything, plus my body really cant pull it off, and I don’t want to look like everyone else. I know everyone is going to dress up like a pirate or an angel/devil. Come on get original people. But I think my costume is super cute. I found a drop waist, shift style dress at a department store for only $20.00, and I am wearing it with some stockings and high heals that I already have. I bought a 20’s inspired little hat, which is so cute, I have to find a way to wear it with my normal wardrobe. Then I bought a feather to wear in my hair and a string of pearls and called it good. The boyfriend is going as a mobster so it works out together.

Tomorrow is going to be such a crazy day. I have rehearsal from 9-1 and breakfast before that. I know, breakfast so early… why? Because its tradition, we always go to Black Bear Diner before saturday rehearsals. Then I have to run a few errands with my mom from 1-3 because we are leaving sunday morning for Chicago for a week. Then at 4 I have my first Halloween party and am leaving that at 6 to go to another one. I hope I can get ready in the hour I will have once we are done running errands.

Being a California Girl in my day-to-day life, I realized that I really dont have a wardrobe to accommodate low 40’s high 30’s weather so I need a few of the essentials like gloves and scarves etc… . But you never have everything you need when you are going on a vacation.

But I am looking forward to tomorrow and dressing up, it will be the first time in a couple of years that I am going to go out and dress up and have fun. Usually I just sit at home and hand out candy to all the kids that come by the house, while I watch Miracle on 34th street. Don’t ask me why I watch that movie, but I always have ever since I was little, so just chalk it off to my weirdness.

Well I think its time to go try to sleep… one sheep, two sheep, three sheep…

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Today has sucked! My mother has gone totally off the reservation! We have been fighting all day and it really hasnt been my fault. I hate fighting with people and I am not good at it.

Everything that doesnt go how she wants it to go is because I didnt do something right. I try to talk to her about things that are going on, mainly basketball stuff, and she starts yelling at me and going crazy. I dont even know what to do.

I’m sorry mom I know your stressed out, but everyone else in the world is stressed and has stuff to do too so sorry the world doesnt revolve around you today!

What a lovely day.

I went to the doctor and he did all this crazy stuff to my knee that made it really sore. We talked about it and I did some x-rays and basically he thinks it is something like softening of the patella or a torn meniscus but…

Dont you always love the buts? But it is too inflamed right know to figure out what is actually injured in the knee and what isnt. I have too much swelling and pain in other areas of the knee from me not going to the doctor right when it happened. So for the next two weeks I am on Celebrex trying to bring down the inflammation  and then its back to the doctor to figure out the real problem.

Back to basketball. I am struggling today. In order to be a coach you have to be certified in CPR and First Aid. I missed the one they offer at the high school so I had to find another one some place near where I live. My dad, I can tell that he is a little frustrated that I don’t already have it done.

So I was online this morning trying to find a CPR class that I can take and I found some listed on the Red Cross website. I had to call my dad to find out if I just needed the CPR or if I needed the whole thing with the First Aid. He said I needed the whole thing but that I also needed to go to the Sheriffs department and get finger printed and get a TB test. This isnt that big of a deal really, but it’s that all of this is happening in the eleventh-hour. It doesnt have to be like that. I dont see why I couldnt know this like two or three weeks ago.

I just love it because if this situation was happening in reverse he would be livid! Like through the freaking roof with anger and he would belittle me and make me feel like him not having all the information was all my fault. Which is would be. But here I am and I start to sound just a little bit frustrated he breaks you down. I dont know if I can work so close to him! I just dont know.